It's A Long One

Wow. Im going to be 20 in a couple months. I cannot believe it. From what I hear it only goes downhill from here haha. But really, thats what i've been told. Anyways, I was thinking about the past few years and this is where im at in my thinking process...
-I graduated from high school 2 years ago! I have nothing to show for it.
- Im about to make my 2 year school a 3 year school.
-I have no idea what to do with my life. I want to do so much but dont know how I could.
- I cant decide if leaving EA not married is an epic fail, or a success?
- Should I move to Utah? I have no "family" up there. Could I handle being away from my parents?
- What am I supposed to do in my life. Do I want to go on a mission?
- P.S. Im failing my math class, did I mention its the second lowest math class they offer?

I've been talking with my roomates alot lately (not that we dont talk). But for the most part were all kind of scattered on what to do with our lives. Its freakin hard! Missy has decided to move back home to California to be closer to family and start over. I dont know what im supposed to do without her! Missy was my first best friend in college. I love her to death, we've had our moments just like everyone else but here we are still friends!
Jackie is just as lost as me! She's more vocal about it but were definantly in the same boat. She has a little more motivation than me though, she is going to Pennslyvania this summer to teach little jewish kids how to dance. But she's not quite sure of what she should do when she gets back. Does she want to come back? Does she want to move home? Should she stay east coast?
I dont even know what I would do if I didnt come back. Where do I go. Im sure I could move back to Tucson, perhaps sleep on the couch at home for a few months but I dont really know if I want to move back to Tucson. I like going home for the weekends and hanging out with my family but would it be the same if I made it permanent? It would be hard to come back here without the girls I live with. Im not to friendly I guess. I dont really try to make new friends so coming back without everyone would be a shocker. It wouldnt even be the same, so would I like it here even if it was different? I dont know that I would. Were more homebodies then anything so going out and doing things with different people is a foreign concept to me! So maybe it would be a good thing.

Well here are some pictures of the last semesters. I havent posted any in forever!

Julie and me on one of our epic hikes.

This is Landon. My boss. he loves me

We played scum everyday for hours for like 2 months straight.

Again an "epic" hike.

Jackie and me in the firetruck

These are our poker faces. Obviously its a good thing I dont play...

Literally this is what my life has consisted of for the most part over the last few months. Scum, hikes, long drives, more scum, work, and occasionaly school :]