Grateful.

Over the last few days i've been thinking alot about how thankful and blessed I am to have the family I do. Ive been talking with friends and listening to all the hardships and trials their families have been through, and it made me think of my own family and how grateful I am for them and all they do for me. So I wanted to take the time to say thank you to them for everything they do...

Mom, where do I begin? Im so grateful for everything you do for me. Your always there to listen to all my whining and complaining about the things that happen in my life. You give me good advice for just about everything. Im glad that you talk to me and you make it sound like you want to talk and listen to all my gossip. Im grateful that you are a worthy member of our church so that when me and Justin (or Dad occasionally) want to do something "bad" your there to convince us we'll go to hell and make us feel bad enough to not do it...such as my tattoo, and American Gangster...which we saw anyways haha. But im also grateful that your willing to sin with us every now and then by going to eat on Sundays occassionally :] Im also grateful that you still take me shopping although you already know that in a short period of time I will be complaning non stop about how "my legs hurt". I really enjoy the me and you time we get. I think your the only mom I know that will walk down 4th Ave. with their kid and go into all the crazy shops...and dance around in parachute pants...just to help me find boots and a hippie shirt. And last but not least im so grateful for all the times you've taken me to the doctor for cancerous freckels on the bottom of my foot, all the rare diseases I was positive I had, and anything else incredibly dumb ive thought I had, any other parent would tell me to suck it up and go to school. I am positive though that one day I will be able to say "I told you I was sick!".

Dad. Oh how I love you. Im so grateful for everything you do for our family. Im incrediably grateful that you are a worthy preisthood holder and that I know that I can come to you for anything. Im also so grateful that you go to a job you hate everyday so that we will have the stuff we need. I really enjoy when you wake me up at the butt crack of dawn so we can go to IHOP to eat breakfast and talk about life when I come home on the weekends. (we need to do it again!) I love that you know the words to all the songs from my "era" such as Beyonce's Irreplaceable, and any Gwen Stefani song. I love that you watch Rob & Big and that you laugh as hard as you do watching it. I love talking to you and listening to the advice you give to me as well. Im so grateful that you are Mr. Safety. Im glad that your always checking my truck for me when I go home and changing the oil and filling up the tires for me. I love when I come home at night and tell you "im home" and the first thing that you say everytime is "did you lock door?" "nope dad its wide open". Its a comfort thing haha. Surprisingly it has all rubbed off on me. I HATE when the lights are left on in here, and Im constantly worried about someone leaving the oven on and our TM blowing up. "SOMETHINGS BURNING!!" hahaha.

Justin. Oh how I love you too dear brother. Im really grateful that you served an honorable mission. It affected my life for the positive and im glad that I have you to look up to. Im so glad that you and I have a good relationship and that I can call you whenever I need anything. Im glad that you and Makenzie have the relationship you do. Its hard to stay worthy in a relationship thats lasted that long. Sounds weird but I really admire that. Im really glad you did the Border Patrol thing. I think that you should stay with it and try again. Dont let it discourage you. Do what you want to do and dont let anything stop you! You have so much potential to do whatever you want. Just figure that out and "do work son" Also, Im glad that you can admit im the funniest person you know. It means alot haha.

Beau and Bailey. Ill start with Beau... You are so funny. Ill give you that much. Really though, im glad you came along. I feel like we have a close little relationship and that we are bonded in a weird way. We are both the same in so many ways and I like that about you because that means you'll be really cool. But really, you are really a sweet boy when your not biting your lip and are getting ready to punch Bailey. Id be careful around her Im pretty sure she could take you! Your so smart and your really good at skateboarding. Just do what you want and stay sweet haha.
Bailey. Im so glad you came along too! Im grateful that you look up to me like you do and even when im not very nice to you, you still do and say nice things to me. Im so grateful for all the notes and bracelets you've given to me. I have them all at my house andI read them all the time! Your pretty funny and you have a cute laugh. I think your the one with the athletic gene so keep up with the sports. I really liked going to your games your really good! You are so smart and funny and nice. Just keep being you :]

I love you guys so much and I cant wait till I come home again!

Im Moving Up In The World!!

Well this last week or so has been really fun. I think a combination of stress and bordem helped with my past breakdown. I've been hanging out more with people which has made me feel alot better. Its nice to shake things up a bit and do something different every now and then. I got my test back in anatomy....not proud by any means but I am moving up in the world...or at least the class. I got a 67% on this one haha! Im hoping this means the next test will be in the 70's or better :] Andd I got a raise at work too woo-hoo!! I went from minimum wage to 25 cents above it! I know I know, ill be rolling in the dough in no time!
I was talking to my roomate the other day and she told me that hitting my head was the best thing thats happened to me, Im funnier and I laugh more. haha I dont exactly know how to take that one but I think she's right. I feel lighter now, not like I've lost weight or anything, but I feel free-er? I do laugh more and I havent been freakin out over everything lately. So I think she's right, my concussion did some good up there!
I start my actual clinicals in two weeks! Im really nervous. If I do something wrong I could seriously kill one of the old folks!! Im pretty sure Id never get a license after that! haha but really I dont want to hurt anyone and Im nervous about doing something wrong. Not to mention I have to wipe some saggy butts. Ive been sicked out more from my CNA class in the past few weeks than I have my whole life so far. Its been interesting and really fun! Lets just hope all goes well :]

Tagged

Well...My mom tagged me so here goes...

10 years ago I...
1. was 9. Enough said.
2. Had braces and glasses...I know big nerd.
3. shared a room with Justin.
4. loved riding my bike and rollerblading.
5. wore overalls like they were going out of style.

5 things on my "to do" list today (or tomorrow)...
1. Do something with my life.
2. Read my scriptures and pray more.
3. Study.
4. Exercise.
5. Make new friends. (Not that I dont like the ones I got.)

5 snacks that I enjoy...
1. Fruit Smiles.
2. TLC cheddar crackers.
3. pb&j?
4. hot cheetos and cream cheese. I highly reccomend it.
5. peanut m&m's

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire...
1. Buy an automobile.
2. Put away for a nice house/savings for my family's education...children, husband, me, etc...
3. Pay off my parents debt.
4. Pay my parents ALL the money I owe them...or should owe them.
5. Go shopping.

5 places I have lived...
1.Las Cruces, NM
2. High Rolls, NM
3. Alamogordo, NM
4. Tucson, AZ
5. Thatcher, AZ

5 jobs I've had...
1. Quiznos.
2. "Nanny"
3. Brueggars Bagels.
4. Western Wizzats. (Doesnt technically count..I worked there for like 3 weeks, and I barley ever went. WORST job ever!!)
5. R&R Pizza Express.

I tag...anyone who feels like doing this...

Trip(s) To The Er

My failed attempt at showing everyone my nursing scrubs :] haha
Well the week has picked up a little and was not so bad afterall. Im glad to report I did NOT have my emotional breakdown as planned, although I do think it might have done me some good. Anyways. Last night I was so adamint (sp?) about getting to bed before midnight because I knew that I was going to have my nursing clinicals ALL DAY today. So my plan was to hang out with our friend Alecc whose visting for a while and then go home at a reasonable hour. Im proud to say I did practise self control and I was home at 10 pm. I think its an all time record for me. I dont even know what we were doing but everyone was planning on going to a dance party, and as much as I looove to dance *cough cough* I dragged my grumpy butt home. When I got home however I couldnt sleep so I was just lurking people on the internet when I hear Lacey come home. This was right about the time that I got bored and I was a little excited with the idea of wearing scrubs today, so like a little kid I had them on and I was thinking about how legit I looked. But I hear Lacey digging around in the kitchen so I go out in my scrubs and asked what she was doing and she was like "I think Johnny broke his elbow!" So I went outside to check him out when he started laughing a little, it dawned on me how dumb I must look wearing my scrubs at 10:30 pm. He was like hey your a nurse can you tell me if its broke. Then I had to proceed to tell him how un-legit I am, and that im not a nurse. I asked him some questions pretending like I knew what I was doing, and my assumption came back negative on a break but their was definantly some damage done. So I follow Lacey and him to the ER and get him all checked out. It was pretty uneventful for the 3 hours we were there. So what do you do in the waiting room do you ask?....Take pictures. Lots and lots of pictures. We gained a few friends and had a photoshoot :]

The man of the hour. I was right, he only popped a fat pocket or something. haha

Well...I took a slight break from this to go hang out last night. I dont remember if I ever told anyone about the monster house guys? We would play monster pong at their house all the time, but anyways we started hanging out with them again and we all wanted to do something last night. We went to the football game, and after decided to go do something. These boys are CRAZY! But their so fun. So we decided to make a big slip n slide and go play on it at a hill at the school. BAD IDEA. I dont remember any of it. I remember hitting my head only because my head hurt so bad. The last thing I remember is walking into the ER and I was so mad because I didnt have shoes and I felt so white trash. I faintly remember answering a question about what the date was and I couldnt remember that. I knew it was Sept. Thats it. I dont remember walking to the room, I dont remember driving to the hospital, I dont remember anyone coming to the slip n slide or anyone who was there. I dont even remember not remembering. This is what Ive been told haha....

I hit my head going down the slip n slide and apparently I went down it 3 more times. My head hurt so bad and I was just sitting on the side. This girl wanted Lacey to take some pictures of everyone so Lacey asked me to go down to the bottom of the hill with her. So I went down the hill and I wasnt saying anything and I told Lacey that I couldnt remember anything and something was wrong. Lacey didnt believe me at first and she said that I said "Lacey I swear to God I dont remember anything, Something is wrong!" And I got teary eyed so she knew it was bad. Missy and Jackie came down and asked what was going on and I freaked out on Missy and was just like dont make a big deal about it, and I kept telling her not to tell anyone haha. I just told them Im losing my memory and I didnt know what was happening. I didnt remember anyone coming to the hill it was just scary. So Lacey took me to the hospital and she said I asked her the same question 14 times. She said it got to the point where she stopped answering. So we get there I get into a room and we wait. Lacey called Jono and Joseph and Trent to come and give me a blessing. I had just met Joseph that night and he was the first one to get there and when he walked into the room I couldnt remember his name. It freaked me out, im so good with names!! Anyways the doc just told me I had a concussion and to go home. I was like uh thanks. But the boys came back over to keep me up and they gave me a blessing. It was fun and im so grateful for them and that they came and hung out in the hospital with us for round 2!! haha. But really I lost my memory of a few hours and its so scary and weird. I couldnt imagine what it would be like to lose days and months or memory. But anyways, im ok haha. My neck hurts and I have a headache. I think i'll live though, no more slip in slides for me :]

Mah Rooommaatteeessss :]

Were not exactly sure who he is...haha

Tevye's Birthday party

Sneaking into the lake

Roomates plus Missy

The skinny dipping group :] haha

Our new friends...actually we dont know them either :/

I live with creepers

Like I said...

AHH LIFE.

Well life so far has been pretty hectic. I swear I feel like im in school all the time. These 3 hour classes are really getting to me. Its so hard! School has never been hard for me, Ive never really had to apply myself Ive always just coasted on by. Not anymore though, its really tuff and since ive never expierenced this before I feel like im drowning and I cant swim! I dont know what to do so im just trying to do what I can I guess. I got my schedule for clinicals for nursing last week. I start the middle of October and get done like the end of November. This means that every Saturday during these next few weeks means ill be working with the elderly from 7 am to 5 pm. I was so thrilled to be doing this 2 weeks ago but as ive talked to people who have done it before I havent come across one that had liked it even a little bit. I was like what, how can you not like the sweet old people? I come to learn the old people at Infinia are not so sweet, more like rabid beast who want to make your expierence horrible. haha maybe not that bad but I definantly havent heard one good thing about them. So now im really nervous. I do get to spend three of those Saturdays at the hospital though so it should help. Work is same as ever. I can only work like 3 days a week with my schedule so I do kinda like that aspect but I feel like im always either at work or at school. Its frustrating being the only one of my roomates having a job, im not exactly sure why I get so frustrated with that but I do. Jackie basically has a job, she' s the only one who is gone as much or more than I am. This girl is so crazy I honeslty dont know how she does it. She is a freshman who is doing cheer here but she has 18 credits. Shes a nut and she seems like shes always doing something. But I think she is my favorite, she makes us laugh so hard at least once a day. She's probably the most innocent nieve person but in a good way...kinda. Everyone needs to meet her though shes great. The trailer mansion is same as ever. My hands are sore from trying to open our bathroom door. Its a scary thing the first time it happens to you. I dont know why our door handle doesnt work but if you shut the door all the way your screwed, your not gonna be able to open the door for at least 2 to 3 min, and if you wash your hands itll probably be like 4 to 5 min before you make it out. And our bathroom is so small you get chloasterphobic because your really not sure if your going to make it out or not, there's a good chance you wont. Espicially if your home by yourself and you shut the door all the way, you might be in there for a long time. Its funny because both of our bathrooms do this but the main one isnt as bad. But when people come over to use our bathroom we usually just let them close it, then we all laugh when we hear them trying to get it open, then it gets quiet, then they knock and someone will help them. Im telling you though, its a scary expierence I think everyone needs to endure. Other than that I think thats basically all thats been happening...Here are a few pictures, ones of me and Tory before she moved away :[ and then there is one of us roomates :] and there's one of Jackie showing off her new uniform haha

Jackie's Uniform

Roomates + Michelle :]

Me and Tory :]

Reflections of Christ

Tonight we had a fireside with Mark Mabry, the guy who created the whole Reflections of Christ idea and the man who made it happen. He is an AMAZING guy. I dont know how else to put it. I have not felt the spirit so strong as I did tonight. He was so sincere and so humble about this whole project and we watched the video about the process and then watched the final product and he brought a few of the pictures and it was just honestly so amazing. I honestly dont know how to put in words the feeling of tonight and listening to him speak, I wish I could and I wish everyone could have been there because its just so inspiring. Here is the link for the Reflections of Christ. Watch it if you havent seen it or just watch it over even if you have. Its so good.
http://www.reflectionsofchrist.org/index.html
Just play around with it and if the video isn't here then find it. It has really made me want to be a better person. I looked back on my life over the past few months and im pretty disapointed in how its turned out. I haven't really done anything productive with myself, I havent done anything to bless or help the lives of the people around me. I've just kind of existed. And im honestly really disapointed in myself. I need to serve more and I need to be a better person. Who I am right now is not who I want to be. I think about how many times Ive chosen to read Twilight over the scriptures or how many times Ive gone to bed without praying thinking ill just do it in the morning, and I know that odds are im not gonna pray in the morning. I so badly want a closer relationship with Christ yet im not doing anything about it! Whats wrong with me, its so simple I know exactly what to do yet its so hard for me to do it! WHY IS IT SO HARD?! I dont know but what I do know is that from tonight on Im going to read my scriptures and pray daily to gain that closer relationship, im going to write in my journal pay my tithing and attend all church meetings regularly. I need to be doing this anyways right! So like I said, from here on out, ITS ON!!
I also went to Globe today. I really like that little town, it has a neat structure. I went down for Zach's farewell. He's going to Chiuahua Mexico...just sound it out... But Missy slept in today causing us to miss his whole talk. We got there right in time for the end of the other speaker. But still it was so good getting to see him and some other old friends before he and they left. Its so weird to think that if I was a guy i'd be getting ready to leave also. And its crazy that all the guys my age are leaving right now! I remember always talking about how weird it was gonna be when Shane and Jonathan left thinking it was so far away, but Jonathons been out for over 6 months and Shane is leaving in 2 months!! I dont even know. Just weird. I was listening to some Colbie Calliat today and I listened to her song "Older". Story of my life, and im sure everyone else's as well. But really its a good song and I think everyone should listen to it. Its my life's soundtrack.

Im adjusting well to the TM. I kinda dig it in a weird way. Im growing attached to this piece of crap. Everyone should come visit its glory. Im also adjusting to school. This semester is going to be top notch but at the same time crazy as heck! 3 of my 4 classes are 3 hours long!! Its so insane but I really like my teachers and im diggin the subjects so I think ill be ok. Trevor Shoemaker my old seminary teacher and my new next door neighbor is in my Anatomy Physiology class with me and were putting together a study group for our class, it should be fun I really like that class alot.And it'll be nice having him in my group because his brother took that class last semester and so we have all the notes and homework to help us!! I enjoyed that class alot in High School and its nice to kinda have an idea of what the teacher is talking about :]
Other than that not a whole lot is going on in life. Im just kinda taking it day by day.